On saying the same thing over...

You're right.
You are.
I guess I am saying the same things over because it's comfortable.
I am so fucking comfortable.
And maybe I feel that if I stop acknowledging the goodness and beauty in things they will cease to exist.
Maybe that is true and maybe it isn't but I'd rather continually acknowledge all that is going right than dwell on all that is not.

Does that make sense?

It only halfway makes sense to me. I mean, yes. I am extremely happy with where I am personally and with my friends and all those close to me. I feel like I have a lot going for me with union board and LEAF and all the extracurriculars that I participate in. But as for school work...being on campus is hard. There is always someone to hang out with. Something to do. When I am home I can set aside time to do work and get down to business because there isn't really much else TO do. So, in a sense I think I have too much going on around me. And I know I can't blame my short comings on my surroundings. I have to just buck up and make myself do school work that I don't care about. It's just finding the motivation to do it.  Because "Just do it" isn't doing it for me.

I love you, reader. Thanks for letting me be me and write about what I need to here.
Be you Madeline, Mom, Heather, Paige, Shelby, Christian...or whoever happens to be reading this.
Thanks for stopping by.