Figuring

It's just after 2 am and I've only just begun my "Authentic Voices" paper that is due tomorrow morning. I'm not worried that I won't get it done. I'm not stressing that it is the middle of the night and I'm barely started. I've been here before, and I know from past experiences that I can crank out papers like they are nothing when I set my mind to it. And as I've professed to nearly everyone who I thought might be even mildly interested--I really enjoyed the book I read for the assignment. It's just that essay writing isn't my forte. I'm extremely comfortable getting on here and talking at length about any given topic. But when I have to organize my thoughtsfeelingswords into a "professional" format, I kind of freeze up just a little bit. Not enough to keep me from writing the paper, nothing near as debilitating as all that. It's just enough to make me a little stiff though. Where the words don't flow as easily, I'm more conscientious of my tone and of my ability to be cohesive.  I'm not sure how to overcome this aversion to essay assignments. For now I'll just go along with it. Allow myself to be slowed, but not stopped. That I will not allow. I refuse.