A Circular Cycle With Shoddy Structure
Memory favors rain.
Criticism surfaces
And resurfaces
In the brain.
The sun and the light
Are nice enough,
Though fleeting.
Compliments are appreciated,
But it's easy to question,
Easy to doubt
Moments hence.
Light fades to darkness
And darkness fades to light
One always anticipates the other,
So can you blame me when I
Cry in the light out of fear of the coming dark?
And would you hold it against me if I
Laugh in the painful dark knowing it won't last?
The circles are cycles
Are cycles are circles
Are dizzying;
They make my head hurt.
I can't see straight
The cycles are circles
Are circles are cycles
I can't see straight
And my head always hurts.
But I've got the songs that remind me of daylight
I listen to them when nighttime is darkest.
I've got the songs that remind me of nighttime
I listen to them when the sun light is too bright.
I've got some friends I drink and get high with
I seek them out when life gets too hard
I've got some friends who don't take my bullshit
I need their guidance when life gets too easy.
Life has become way too easy
And when life is easy
Everything is so much harder,
Harder than it should be.
I remember when everything was peachy
I remember when I used to work hard
I remember the rain
And the sun
And the criticism
And the compliments
And I want life to be hard
Like that again.
2 comments:
I put this same thing in another post, but it's just as true here.
I think you do know how to get help, you just don't want to. I can honestly respect that. You are a smart kid, and you know the resources and support systems that you have to really get yourself help. I think you don't want to get help because that means things will change. You might lose some creativity, but you also lose the dark twisted thoughts. You may lose moments of extreme energetic bliss in which you feel invincible, but you will also lose the long lonely nights spent crying when you think everyone else is asleep. The choice is really yours, and I don't mean that in an offensive manner. I mean that as you need to decide for yourself what is the most important thing for you. I know my personal decision, and I'm really at peace. The most I can hope for you is that you are also at peace with your decision.
Thanks for that.
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