I have a weight sitting in my stomach.

I just made the call to the student counseling center. A fill-in receptionist was working and said she would have the regular receptionist call me back this afternoon when she comes in and we can set up "services" as she called them. Good. Fucking good. I'm realizing even being happy and content as I pretty much feel at present, there can be a lot going on under the surface. I want to be healthy so badly.