Five Hearts That Look Like One

If I loved you more than really makes sense
If I loved you more than I could say
If I loved you deeper than the ocean
Would you dive with me to find the bottom, 
and would you stay?

If I said all of our memories are fleeting
If I said our past must fall to dust
If I said we're falling to the ages
Could you take some time to appreciate this rust?

The time's we've spent alone in graveyards
Is the furthest from lonely I've ever been
And the times we kissed under the moon light
Reminds me of a kiss that shouldn't,
But couldn't not exist

Our hands are held from moment to moment
You hold mine and I hold hers and she holds his
In moments held suspended by bated breath
We long fully dread the coming fallout 
Spearheaded by a fateful exhalation 

You are the breath in my lungs
(My oldest friend, my oldest love)
You are the song I never sing
(We've cried together many times) 
You are the dream gone unfulfilled
(I think we broke each others hearts)
You are the end of everything
(All hope and love and joy and pain)
You are the fire on the tundra
(My guiding light when I am lost)
You are the breeze on summer nights
(To cool my down when nothing else does)
You are the coming of an era
(And every era there is)
You are the onset of the night
(You make me cringe at my own flaws)
You are the falling constellations
(The most beautiful disaster)
You are the hope in suicide
(And precisely why I could never)
You are the death of all things sacred
(Thank you for your disillusion) 
You are the birth of fragile life
(My oldest friend, heart of life)

I hope you know I love you more than really makes sense. 
More than I can say and deeper than the ocean.
If we could just swim down together maybe then
I'd cease to drown.